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yanny; super eighteen; blissfully attached with Ajun aka mentel
i keep my blog update whenever i can, i rant all about my life and bow down on fashionistars! i absolutely love my life. only mentel knows how clumsy, crazy, moody, stupid i am. so, i appreciate all you people who have read my blog. thank you very much. if possible do tag before you leave, but hate tagger pleaseeeeeeeee -.-"


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    • Friday, October 31, 2008



    tomorrow is our 10 monthsary.
    im so glad that we can make it to this far.
    like unbelievable.
     anyways, ive been more hot-tempered over this few days.
    and naz has been very patience with me. 
    mainly because thats what ive been facing in the past.
    maybe the above just want to let him feels how i felt before.
    so yes! i love naz more and more. yes! i grew those love feelings on him again.
    we've been controlling each other life now.
    he just dont like me going out with this guy which i havent plan to go out yet.
    that guy was desperately want to lepak with me. as a friend only lah DUH?!
    so i told that guy, FAUZAN, that if he wants to lepak with me, must bring amy along. 
    at least there's a girl right? (:
    so naz agreed on letting me slack with that idiot.
    i love baby!

    naz has been pampering me with OLD CHANG KEE fried chicken wings.
    oooooooooooOOOOOOO! my favourite!
    im gaining weight now. 

    ( currently, naz and me are not in the mood. as in arguing.)

    We come to love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly.

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    Tuesday, October 28, 2008



    a new name for bf; MENTEL.

    for this few days, mentel have been so irritating, annoying idiot. haha! i dont know whats wrong with him uh. but i think i still can manage to coach him on not being an irritating fucker. (:

    im bored. hungryyyy! haha. actually, for the past days. i ate alot! and i really mean alot! even though im not hungry, i just lantak everything in my mouth. lol! BURRP! just ate mee bandong. lol.

    As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You'll have your heart broken and you'll break others' hearts. You'll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them, and you'll cry because time is flying by. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely, and love like you've never been hurt. Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. you just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you and tell someone off, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone's hand, comfort a friend, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, be a flirt, and smile until your face hurts. Don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back. 

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    Sunday, October 26, 2008



    not in the mood to update. i'll make a proper update soon.

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    Friday, October 24, 2008



    anyway, i got myself a boyfriend. very fast kan? chey! who else if its not nazrul. when farhana rejected his love, suddenly he remembered the times that reza told him how much suffered ive been through. i did told you, i was okay about it and the move on.

    i have no more feelings for him. but after he cried and all, i think it was best for me to give him a second chance. and hell yeah! he's performance are doing very well indeed. he get jealous when my classmates disturbs me in class, when some cute boys want to get to know me and all. he started to be more gentle on me and always think of me FIRST!

    yesterday was the most funniest and the cutest part of all. it was raining so naz hug me tightly, carried my bag and put his hand cover my head to prevent from the rain. (: si cute tuh ader2 jer tao.

    so readers, i know you peeps gonna have question mark on your head. why yanny patched with naz, why yanny gave him a second chance? its all because i always believe that everyone can change for good. it no one accepts him, who will? i also get jealous when i heard stories he kene do this and that. you know!!!

    anw,



    ajun, yanny pun sayang kan ajun(:

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    Sunday, October 19, 2008



    each and everyday. we always face good and bad terms at the same time. so i always started my day with a good one. yesterday, i went to school for revision with amy. i ended my revisions and straight to aidil's house for mee bandong. his mum's cooks nasi briyani too. finish eating, i ate the kuih raya's. sedap to maximum. besar2 pulak tuhh. 101% guarantee puas hati. haha!

    after dealing with the variety of foods, i went to gombak to meet my FELLA's! HELL YEAH I MISS THEM ALOT! especially amin and apit! those boys always drive me crazy. people tend to ask me why i lepak with boys. well? girls are mostly for bitchings, gossipings. boy are more to slacking. best oi! they steam2, i layan them. apit gave me he's leftovers, but i didnt take uh. instead, i just simpan. (reza tak boleh amek! aku bilang naz. kalau kau nak, bayar$10 dulu!) 

    lepak here there. then got a crush with this 17-year-old boy. freaking tall and cute lah that bukit panjang boy. (: SUKER YANNY SUKER! cos that means every saturday can get to meet him. dont want to reveal his name, later all tell2. i malu. LOL! 

    at ten, i straight to my bus and went home. i called up reza to check on him and naz took the phone from him and talk to me. GOSH! im freaking sad to hear his stories lahh. as karma hit him not even a month siol. just one week! alamak! terok giler babi. he cried on the phone saying like, i hurt you all. hows me and break up thingy? i was like. arr? okay? lol! then reza's phone getting low battery. so we have to put down. i used my mum to msg him uh. 

    yg impt jer aku letak. mepek2 not need.

    yanny; oi.. r u okay?

    naz; da ok siket lah.. kenape?

    yanny; dont stress up lah. im not okay with the break up till now. but yet i was strong cos my friends are backing me up. like i said, ure the decision maker in your life. you choose it, you deal with it. okay?

    naz; ya u rite.. actually i dun wan u to take stupid stuff bcos of me.. i din mean to end up lyke dis.. im not the pakai buang.. u tink i dun have heart? i just wanna stop all this things.

    first pop up on my mind was like? if i really took it also. its not bcos of him. its for the enjoyment. true? to make quite clear. i dont want to marah2 nnt stress lah pulak aku.

    yanny; i didnt.. i have brains to think whats right and whats wrong.. okay? we should have stop on june.. u uh! cb knn! haha! u knw if we never do in one month okay tao. then u like.. i dont know lah.. i trusted your sweet words giler pig! hmmph. forgive and forget jer lahh..

    naz; i can 4giv 4get.. but seriusly dun get me wrong.. i really not the type.. n plz take very good care of urself.. i dun wanna hear people talk bout you anymore.. dun steam2, mabok2 and dun trust no one. nak enjoy boleh tapi dun over the limit.. be lyke me din take stupid stuff no more..

    -_______________________-"

    yanny; u nvr take coz u want to proof to her that you change dol.. ape sajer jer lah.. u want to knw which part makes me hate you the most? till now i feel like chopping your head off. you want to knw?

    naz; wat? n wat sweet talk? n i dun like sweet talks.?not just to her i wanna proof to all idiots dat noe me i wanna proof.. dai i can change n besabar.. hahaha

    kiter tgk jer lah yer bang?

    yanny; the 2nd mos day. and the second time you tell shamail about me! >:( give me permission to smack urr face with my bare hands again can? nk step proof kat org konon. then go find work uh dol. before i ask the fat girl to lick2 you again. hahaha.

    naz; fuck ah.. mane ader lick reza smbrg jer. u cee after skul. haha.

    blablabla

    naz; i hear you wanna follow us travel?

    yanny; yah, i want to follow. but must wait long2 coz u must finish ur ns first. this reza has been telling the truth to both of us. behind you and me. that black mamba!

    naz; hahak.. u just wait 4 2 or 4 years jek. not that long pe.. btw, u sebok ehk? :)

    pantat peh budak! aku yang kene sebok. nnt kau!

    yanny; haiyah. kalau tak ajak takper. i can tour with someone else. even aidil, amy nak pegi. (:

    naz; tak lah.. gurauu jek nak ikot2 je.tap kene tunggu uh ah.. tknk tnggu pegi sendiri. u din slp?

    yanny;must wait till i sucessfully find a good job with a good pay then can travel2. lol.. tdo? mayb kjap lagi uh.. u?

    naz; i want to slip ah ngantok ah 2mrw we talk again k?

    pat nie aku step gila haha!

    yanny; dont want uh. why must talk to you? waste time only. haha. alah i bet we neve get to talk tmrw.. nvm, tmrw im going to jln with amy and her friends. see you on monday then?

    and nie part, si tetek nie kene kan aku balek.

    naz; oh.. ok gd nite.. if kalau ble talk to me ehk bsk.. im sori la penat nari.. btw raye dahbes duit org pon dahbes.. haha bye

    -______________________-"

    yanny; nvm. syawal 1 month lah belo. nak duit for friday. ada benda. nk tau, tanyer rea. lol. insyallah i msg youtmrw  if teringat lor. bye bye teteq kecik.

    im going to ZOUK remember? so the tak sabar!

    10:16 AM
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    CONFUSED

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    Friday, October 17, 2008



    thats dilla, aidil's lover.

    aidil, youre getting on my nerve uh erk?! you know, this very morning. i was a bout to stuck in the lift alon thanks to this "SC". -___-" thanks erk dude, aku suker!

    so i had my day wasted in bugis with my two deary friends. as aidil wants to survey some laptops and i want to get a new shirt for the upcoming friday. that will be on 24th. going to ZOUK. so very the tak sabar! fadilla bought three clothes and i only one?

    eh, i update my template soon uh. not now.. like malas gitu lorr. my language also like lazy to think many2. see ya! (:

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    Wednesday, October 15, 2008



    PLEASE! PLEASE! PLEASE! GIVE ME YOUR LINK AND RE-LINK YOU!

    aku terdelete everything. pandai kan?!

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    lazyy.

    i was really stupid to listen to aidil for coming to school. when i reached, a few minutes the class ended. thanks erk aidil, AKU SUKER KAU! at least you were kind enough to buy me ice cream waffle. sayang kau. oh oh! i get to watch WALL E just now in school. cute oi! robots falling in love like wtf! but super cute. 

    im still sick anyway. no appetite to eat still. cannot eat rice since last thursday. i did not starve myself, i just cannot eat. to let my friends happy, i ate boneless chicken. (siaknyer perot, ayam jer nak. lol) i love you friends. i miss reza and fitri and cassie and naddia and alll!!! like fhdsaujfhsdjanvrhwiun, unexplainable. hahs!

    i feel so tired now. not enough rest i guess. sorry erk farhan, paitao! 

    people, do i really have to find a new partner or give myself a break?

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    Tuesday, October 14, 2008





    enjoying the moments being single.

    korang nak tahu tak, sebelom member nak balek rumah. he look back at me. aku ader sedih tgk dier sorang2. haiz, i did came over to him uh. and ACT COOL, chey! but member still buat bodoh. so okay, i ignore. and i did cried when the stupid deejay played lagu with you. -____-

    but anyway, aku skrg dah STRONG GIRL UH! dah macam WONDER WOMAN uh!


    I hate the way you talk to me, and the way you cut your hair. I hate the way you drive my car. I hate it when you stare. I hate your big dumb combat boots, and the way you read my mind. I hate you so much it makes me sick; it even makes me rhyme. I hate it, I hate the way you're always right. I hate it when you lie. I hate it when you make me laugh, even worse when you make me cry. I hate it that you're not around, and the fact that you didn't call. But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you. Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.


    I really think there's a reason that I like him so much. Like something is telling me not to let him go. Every time I follow my heart... it leads me to him. I mean... what other explanation is there. Why is it that he is all I can think about? Why is it that no matter how upset I am... I see him and I can't help but smile? Why is it that when he smiles at me... I get that feeling in my stomach? And even when he'd broken my heart, and hurt me as much as anyone could ever hurt me... when he lied to me... and I hated him... why then did I still feel those same feelings? Answer me that, and then I'll tell you why I let him hurt me so much.


    Now thanks to you...I'm scared to fall in love again. First of all, you broke my heart when I expected you to be the last one to do it. And now I'm left with my heart broken and in pieces and you don't even bother to notice. It's sad because all along I thought you knew me better than everyone else....but now I am starting to wonder if you even knew me at all.

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    Sunday, October 12, 2008





    thought you were the best,
    but youre just like the rest.
    no! youre worse than them.
    nazrul?

    whats wrong with you?

    1st of june, kiter betol2 nak break ngan bi pasal nightmare kiter. bi kater tuh stakat mainan tidor. but i sense that nightmare might happen. then it really happen. kiter mimpi bi patah balek ngan farhana, then dier antar bi balek rumah. she got my body but i regconise her face. then i went to seat back with my friends, suddenly she was there. out of a sudden taik burong jatoh dekat kiter peh kepala. tuh yg buat kiter malu and nak break ngan bi. at first bi nak.. lepas tuh besok nyer bi taknak. bi pelok kiter, im like wth! i cried and you told me, kiter takmau break kay? so i just give it a try..

    after somewhile things became more worse, bi cumer pikir diri sendiri selepas tuh. bi become more and more denial. bi tak bilang kiter aper2 pon. bi tipu smuer. bi kesian tgk kiter nanges selalu, tapi tak pikir keadaan kiter macam maner. thanks to you, i got myself depress and got no appetite to eat. now, im like damn kering already.

    you told me, you starting to have feelings for her again, but look. when i ask you since when? you said june. biler kiter mentak, bi taknak. see?! see?! sekarang awak malu kan kiter. awak busok kan namer kiter kat family ngan kawan2 awak. youve been fooling around with my everything. is that how you want to selesai kan masalah?

    kalau 1 month kiter tak bikin, okay uh. nie tak last 3 days tao bi. macam maner kiter tak sedih? awak tipu kiter. awak nak berubah, atleast from the very start uh. but look at you?! cant be bothered. gosh!

    maybe, it is a good thing to just wish you for the best. and if you think, you need anything, beep me. i tried my best to help. no more fooling around.

    imy.

    8:08 PM
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    Friday, October 10, 2008



    song in her mind = TAKE A BOW from Rihanna

    i cant believe you. how stupid i was to believe that youre willing to change for the best for our relationship. fooling around about my dignity. pretend to care. cant be bothered. 

    awak selalu malukan kiter depan family awak. kiter tak pernah ader niat jahat untok nak rumit kan masalah kiter berdua. tapi awak banyak kali buat masalah. walau macam maner pon, kiter selalu forgive but i will never forget. biler kiter bagi awak muker, awak pijak kepala kiter. bila kiter ckp pasal farhana, awak kater tak lah.. kiter tak ingat pasal dier pon. awak kejam! awak tipu. i just hope farhana's knows what you did to me.  awak tahu ckp awak takkan tinggal kan kiter, tapi awak tgk!

     im just making a fool of myself. stupid me listen to someone that has no feelings for me yet i still bother to care about him. WHY? bcos he brainwashed me not to do stupid stuff, taught me this and that. in the end, i still suffer and gain pain from his wrong doings.

    why i cant even forget him, why do you bother making a princess for the day on my very 18th birthday? ITS BCOS OF THAT DAY MAKES ME SO DIFFICULT TO FORGET ABOUT YOU! 

    REZA , FI3. IM JUST CONFUSED!

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    Thursday, October 09, 2008



    babyboys
    i miss those days. i dont want you. i cant believe your love is just a lie. thanks reza. ily .

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    sick

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    Sunday, October 05, 2008












    i miss myself and my long hair. ):

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    Saturday, October 04, 2008



    yesterday, my period came when i was walking with naz in plaza singapura. you know this idiot. when i told him that im having my period, he was expecting me to have his first child in my womb. -.-" seriously, i was really pissed lah. that gila boy! 

    but actually it was kinda cute lah so that we can get married fast2. lol. he ever did asked before that can we go and get married, then i was like huh? you dont even love me and you want to marry me? further more, he havent even serve his national service. bikin kelakar uh nie datok.

    if possible, even my mum want us to get engage. but how? im having problems on how to let him love me again like how he used to. i dont want to break with him. i know, the more im with naz, the more chances ill get to suffer. but everything takes time to heal. i try to give him time and space soon.

    bismillahnirramannirahim.
    oh god, please bless my relationship with Nazrul bin Bohari. i bet you know how much suffer you've made me in this love. but please, i rather just die then leaving this wonderful boy. i love this boy like how you love me. i really wish that im fated to be with him and only him. oh god, i just hope you're listening to my prayers. amin.

    11:18 PM
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    yesterday night was a blast. naz, reza , their ex-classmate name shamail and me went to mos. but before that naz and me headed to town. the actual plan was catching a movie, instead we want to save money for the club. 

    while walking to town, naz told me that she messaged him selamat hari rayer. he told me that she msged him first. i told him dont lie. argh! lazy to elaborate about it.

    anyway, after we met reza and shamail. ( those idiots were damn late) but its okay, at least i got to spend time with naz for a while. cos we were sitting at clarke quay steps near the river. that place was a memorable place as naz and me first time ton together. we sat there and look at those heros that went to take the ride of the GMAX and the G- SWING? i think uh. lol! back to the story, shamail was kinda like VIP. so we get to go in to the VIP section. best lah. his friend treat us martell. naz and me were got tipsy. only reza dont.i think first timer dont get drunk easily uh.

    naz, reza and me dance at the crowded dance floor. we had a lot of fun uh. i get to know this japanese girl name helen, she said she can bring me to VIP section also. i dont know whether its true or not cos she looks drunk. she called reza hand-der-some. very funny her language. we were get to know this caucasion guy name ben. he's cool. but naz dont even understand a word he says cos he speaks to SLANG. hahaha. 

    got one time the deejay played with you from chris brown. i cry like mad lah. seriously, i miss those times that naz sang to me. but now, everything is falling. 

    when 5 am already, the mos closed and we went to 7eleven to wait for he first train. but instead, we took taxi home. lol! naz gave me $7 and my fare to home is only $8.50. i just pay $1.50. goooooooood! 

    oh! naz promise me that he will try his best to be the old nazrul again. you readers are my witness especially REZA!

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    Friday, October 03, 2008

    please listen.

    this early morning, i chat with reza. he cool me down by letting my feelings out. i told him from a-z. he's really a good listener, thats why i love him! ( I REALLY DO OKAY!) he was born witha 50% of a woman's heart. thats why he knows how much ive been suffer myself  just for the man i love. reza was our middle man. between naz, that girl and me. at times, i was afraid to let naz stick with reza cos he can get relevant info about her to naz. but i didnt put a blame on him, cos he got no ways to turn. naz is his best buddy. so he have to help him too. but i was really disappointed. i felt unwanted, unappreciated and disrespect. apa lagi dia nak pon aku tak tahu?

    maybe a time off will be prefer. but i must think about the consequences too. what if she appear on his life again? dont i feel like a sore loser? dont he see how pure my love towards him? cant he move on like what i did? 

    he told me before to give him time to forget about her, i did. but it became worse 9 months plus already, no effort making instead doing a homework on how to get back with her. i was unaware of it till he told me this and that. its been two months ive been hurt by his behavior. 

    i dont want him to get bore by what im doing. i dont want do give up hopes for him. maybe it takes time to heal. but when? till when must i be patient? god bless me please.

    i need some advice my dear readers. 

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    this afternoon, my mum wake me up and wants me to bath. i was damn lazy and she smack my ass with a metal rod. haha. not pain uh, but when i was bathing, i saw 2 lines on my ass. hahahahahahah! cute per!

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    Thursday, October 02, 2008



    bad luck struck at me since august till now. )':


    i miss the old you. the one who's always concern in everything i do. the one dont mind whatever i did to you. the one who's always okay in letting me be beside you. 5 months we were okay, but you're different now. kenaper uh selalu gitu?


    happy bday mom!

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    Wednesday, October 01, 2008



    aku tak tahu lah aper ke jadah aku tulis pasal update aku nie. but maybe, some people have to know. 

    Naddia, Nadya, Hazy, Lyza, Ikka J; korang cukop kenal dgn lelaki itu. 

    do you ever wonder why yanny chose to move on from her first love? even though how intelligent he is, how charming he is, how respectful he was...

     he was just the best. that was before. mainly because, i deserved it lah somehow. anyway, i was a bitch when i was 16. at that point of time i was still with this wonderful guy. i went out with other boys without him knowing, i make-out with other boys and all. but still I LOVE THAT MAN VERY MUCH! i dont know why.

    last year january, my bestfriend was in the hospital. she's like my bestfriend, how can i just ignore her. and because of that, i blew up he's plan of meeting him @ que's bday chalet. it wasnt a heartache cos i thought everythings gonna be back the way it is. but both of us tak nak mengalah and so we really broke up. that part aku merana gila babi punyer uh.

    then then, march time. we patch up but dia macam malas-malas gitu. so i dont know what to do, we silent break. then on april time, he wanted me back, i said i dont want because at that point of time i was with this shaik. then he told he wants me before someone touch me. i said someone already did. and then he called me cheapskate girl. i cried the whole night regretting every single thing i did.

    around june, we patched back and he USED ME. and so was on AUGUST. 

    then on november, i turned up on his birthday party in arab street.

    on december, after i went bali. i bought his bday gift, i met him in bugis as a friendly meet up lah. at that point of time, i got a feeling that we both gonna get back together. do you think that i should get back with him after 3 times getting ditched? no right. so i finally moved on. 

    moved on tuh memang moved on. tapi susah lah nak luper kan dier. he's my first love. anyway, lelaki itu kan ader lah..











    MUHAMMAD LUQMAN HAKIM BIN RAZALI!

    skrg reza, aku pon dah dol samer dgn kau. hahahahah!

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    to all my muslim mates. happy raya-ing.

    and my bf, happy 9.

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